Safety First

"So they are no longer two, but one. Therefore what God has joined together, let man not separate." Matthew 19:6

Relationship experts say that the blindly smitten stage of infatuation in all relationships fizzles out short of the one year mark. This change supposedly opens the door for true growth to occur.

Reading over the last 329 days of my life, it is obvious, I never needed a New York City trial period.... That adventurous cheer leading try-out was a show stopping toe touch on arrival day. I'm still rooting for my new home team.
I can stay . And I will, with still so much left to discover.

But something has changed....
Maybe I enjoyed the thrill of finding food for no money, maybe I had more idle time therefore higher ideals, maybe I just miss my leg room.
A weak woman would place blame on someone else. And I can't be resilient and strong all the time. It is true, my husband is still testing the rough and rowdy waters. And this unnaturally makes me embrace New York with my feet on the ground.

I'd rather love airborne.
Cause sometimes balance and compromise knock the wind out of my crazy ways.
And that ain't no fun.

Or is the honeymoon truly over?

Calendar Constraint

"She will give birth to a son and you are to give him the name Jesus, because He will save his people from their sins." Luke 1:26

He peered over the rim of the cracked cup and looked deep within the darkness. He saw greed, gluttony, deception, dishonesty, crime, corruption, self appraisal, selfish ambition, sorrow, angst, anger, heartache, humanism, manipulative motivation, me mentality, pride and worse...

He said give it to me and drank it in a satisfied gulp. It is the exact reason He came to this world to save us from ourselves and set us free.
He is the reason for the season.
It doesn't come from perfectly placed packages under a trimmed tree.
We celebrate this time of year rejoicing that our King came from heaven to deliver us from our constant self serving sin and to cut the chains that bind.

It's surrendering the silly notion that you can save yourself and moreover that there is a Santa Clause.

Yep, I will still go see the gorgeous glittering lights of Rockefeller's tree and give our gracious God the praise deserves.

There should be one thing on that list.

Your social obligation aside...why do you celebrate Christmas?

Flight or Fight

"So when you, a mere man, pass judgment on them and yet do the same things, do you think you will escape God's judgment?" Romans 2:3

It's coming on Christmas

They're cutting down trees
They're putting up reindeer
And singing songs of joy and peace...

Oh I wish I had a river
I could skate away on
But it don't snow here
It stays pretty green
I'm going to make a lot of money
Then I'm going to quit this crazy scene...

I wish I had a river
I could skate away on
I wish I had a river so long
I would teach my feet to fly
Oh I wish I had a river
I could skate away on...

Joni Mitchell

I can't preach to others about how truly insignificant any drama we dream up and scream at really is, if I don't practice the same zen mentality. I refuse to engage in family arguments in a blaming or defensive manner. Detrimental Delusion should be dealt with head on with a hard hat. So instead I will air all of our undesirable issues...cause we all got em'.

And if you say don't, you're lying.

Folk Christmas of God Rest Ye Merry, let NOTHING you dismay, on the airwaves and white lights brighten our cozy one room abode. Candles flicker on a real rootin tootin rainy day off. Our neighbors are treated to an R Rated peep show through the fire escape window.

I'm treated to more.

Yet, with the ring of a phone, aggravated angst manages to find me on a peace given day.

Damn straight I wish I had river, I could skate far, far, far away on.

What do you do when there is nowhere to run and nowhere to hide?

Come Out, Come Out

"For it is shameful even to mention what the disobedient do in secret.But everything exposed by the light becomes visible." Ephesians 5:12-13

Watching my cream in my coffee make beautiful swirls at the surface. I'm going to drink you up hot coffee goodness...

Wasn't it our favorite boy Hank who said, "Your cheating heart will tell on you."?

You know I hadn't mentioned it before but now that our Tiger has finally admitted to joining the pile of decrepit dusty bones so many selfish and weak have fallen prey to, I feel his shocking downfall needs to be addressed.

Infidelity is running ramped and the steadily heated climate we all are slowly adjusting to blinds us to the fact that it is dead wrong. The devil is doing a fantastic job with temptation, luring, and lowered expectations for those who take vows and pledge to stand behind them.

Cheating is the ultimate in deception and anyone who continuously partakes and claims to be a squeaky clean citizen while whining on the golf course deserves to have the living shit beat out of him with the very weapon that gives him a false sense of power. No, not his dick. A 5 Iron.

On a lighter note, Disney pays beautiful homage to the way Charles Dickens wrote it, reminding all of us, we need a dose of fear of God to remember the spirit of Christmas and lend good will to our fellow man.

What are you hiding?

For Tomorrow We...?

"And I'll say to myself, "You have plenty of good things laid up for many years. Take life easy; eat, drink and be merry."Luke 12:19

Be present.

I told this stellar woman tonight in a private dining room, thank you for assisting in my dream of New York City coming to true fruition.

I have an amazing part time job in which I spill my heart and soul into....

Why? She is driven, tenacious, savvy, strong, ambitious, and generous all in the same breath.

All 5'3 of her is a successful powerhouse and she thanks for me for what I do for her.

Tonight she treated us to a five course wine pairing at the best of the best on a blustering 20 degree Friday Broadway Light night at Bar Boloud.

My heart and tummy are content.

For those non New Yorkers.

www.danielnyc.com

What's better than a cool night and tasty buzz?

Whoo R U?

"Do nothing out of selfish ambition or vain conceit, but in humility consider others better than yourselves." Philippians 2:3"

Aim to please, just like a loyal dog.

What makes humility so desirable is the marvelous thing it does to us; it creates in us a capacity for the closest possible intimacy with God” Monica Baldwin

Oh my long underwear cover my belly button and reach up to my ribcage.

The weather has arrived...and instead of sleeping with the windows open to compete with the spittin fire radiator like last night. Tonight, my nightcap and fleece accompany me to bed...someone must have tampered with the boiler room.

Forgive me Lord Jesus if I demonstrate myself more privileged strictly because I know you. I believe since you know how much suffering and pain can be in this Earthly life, it saddens you to see your children fight furiously through it without you. I do not consider myself better I consider myself saved and protected. And I'm unworthy. It is my prayer daily to be humbled and convicted so that my compassion visibly overflows and my thankfulness is written across my face. Even if the Original Gangster stares at me today knowing full well I've been on his show more times then we can Bodycount and the wind whipping through Times Square chaps my blushing cheeks as the Mississippi women in pink sweatshirts, pulling their roller suitcases across the crowded sidewalk mistake me for hot shit on the "Oh myyy Gaaad, it's CSI New York" television set. (Correction SVU)

It's a fast escape on John Rocker's favorite Number 7 train deep to the Countryside of Queens for homemade authentic churros.

Wind down by staring intently into my friends aquarium and come to the realization the only element separating me from them are fins and PRIDE.

If one pill makes us larger and the other one makes us small, what do the self serving self righteous ones do?

Another Day In Paradise

"For it is with your heart that you believe and are justified, and it is with your mouth that you confess and are saved." Romans 10:10

Gridlocked Rainfall

Just me and three hundred of my closest sopping wet friends using stacks of newspapers as stepping stones and waiting for the raring start to our morning commute....You have to laugh.

The FDNY couldn't wade through the water quick enough while the rest of the Northeast got the fluffy stuff.

Meanwhile. Came across this jarring plea.

I adore my pastor Michael Youseff and the Church of Apostles in Atlanta.

Pretty sure, I am not with them on signing my name in declaration.

www.manhattandeclaration.org

Just like I don't write petitions and lay them before an image of Mary.

Just like I don't tell a flesh and blood priest of my transgressions and look to him for humility.

Just like I don't want to spread Christian Truth's by hammering people over their already full head's.

Wouldn't it would be better to rally those closer to Christ by striving to be more accepting pictures of Him?

And what's up with that name?

I said I wasn't going to do this...but I'm layering up to portray a VIP flyby blur on SVU tomorrow and need my beauty sleep.

To what inevitable end, are we all bitching and moaning?