Tuesday, June 8, 2010

Bite Down

"For when dreams increase and words grow many, there is vanity; but God is the one you must fear." Eccelesiastes 5:7

Okay so maybe it was the nitrus oxide, but today, sitting in the chair getting two teeth drilled and filled with the smell of decay in the air was more tolerable than listening to this hot air...

Did you ever think a meeting with the head of British Petroleum might be the route to take over the expertness of shrimping captains? As of yesterday, this was still not a competent choice he had made...


Can you tell me what emotion this evokes and can you stand the pain?

Old

Gray hair is a crown of splendor; it is attained by a righteous life. Proverbs 16:31

I sat in an upright chair covered with flower print plastic, eating a soft oatmeal cookie, listening
to, "Let Me Call You Sweetheart" on the grand piano.
The twenty other women in the room with me looked on thoughtfully. Some hummed the tune, others sang in a muted voice with resonating memories of their time gone by, the rest rolled in to watch cautiously from the outskirts.
When the player struck the first keys of Oklahoma's, Oh What a Beautiful Morning, I looked at their wrinkled faces and dulling eyes...and tears filled mine.
It was impossible to imagine just what they had endured over the course of their lives. And as the song says, did everything go their way?

I know while they were busily lost in... falling in love, marrying, World War II, keeping a home, waiting or better praying, their husband would come home and meet his newborn baby, attending funerals of loved ones year after year, they never conceptualized the idea of spending the remainder of their days in this room with pale yellow wallpaper, a checkerboard in the corner, and a young black woman serving them lukewarm water.

I must slow down as the clock will not.
And I must love my husband with all I got, as I will outlive him.
I can only pray someone comes and plays the piano for me.

Do you think you know better than those before?


Sunday, June 6, 2010

Claiming Ignorant

"By this all men will know that you are my disciples, if you love one another." John 13:35

Ain't nothing like a small time inbred redneck wearing a visor to remind me, I dance dangerously close to the edge of being a misanthrope.

I went out swinging tonight.

"You can take the girl out of the honky tonk, But you can't take the honky tonk, take the honky tonk, out of the girl." Brooks and Dunn

But God knows I try.

If you've found a way to keep the peace, will you teach me?




Friday, June 4, 2010

You Gotta Let Go

I want to see y'all jumping...

One Thing...

"A time to weep and a time to laugh, a time to mourn and a time to dance," Ecclesiastes 3:4


Tonight on the beach of Governor's Island, staring back at magical Lower Manhattan, Michael Franti reminded us all... now is the time to dance.

Can you just shine on now, just shine on now?




Wednesday, June 2, 2010

Spouting

"I will make rivers flow on barren heights, and springs within the valleys. I will turn the desert into pools of water, and the parched ground into springs." Isaiah 41:8

OH MY GOD. I call on your name.

He's going on the offensive.
Let us not hire top notch civil engineers or send down Navy Seals to alleviate the gusher, let's throw your weight around and send the Attorney General (whom I've mentioned before) down to hire prosecutors to go after BP and oh yeah tax all of the oil companies while you're proactively at it. All the while insisting on what an amazing job you are doing, when public opinion screams otherwise
I can just imagine the Saudi's counting dollar signs right now. .

Are you fucking kidding me?

Don't use your slick finger to point and place blame, plug the hole. And not with insipid dialogue or charismatic gesturing. But with constant, empathetic, and obedient prayer.

Israel is the apple of God's eye and OBama tilts towards Palestine.
Do I need to explain to you why?

I would apologize but I am not sorry for my rant.
I just wish I was capable of putting it aside so my festering friction with the administration didn't bleed into my introspective loosely life based fiction at the end of the day.

Something to work towards in my future.

I would call my dad, but he would sing the likes of a country tune of, Sometimes Life is Too Damn Hard. And I already know that.

The good news if you want to call it that, is no matter how much I anger or pseudo operate on auto pilot in the maniac streets of NY, I never feel the desire to buy crack rock, hole up in my apartment and do shots of vodka while eating soggy breadcrumbs off my dirty tile floor.

And for this I am thankful.

Doesn't that count for something?





Tuesday, June 1, 2010

What? Scream Louder


"Wine is a mocker and beer a brawler; whoever is led astray by them is not wise." Proverbs 20:1

Got nothing better to do than indulge in a debaucherous and perfect temp Tuesday night happy hour.

Just wish I could bring the evening to a peaceful Advil popping close.

I think I am in the right city when I bang my hand against a taxi's window, have an all out fitful and obscenity filled altercation in the middle of the street, and part ways feeling vindicated, despite being called a bitch at high decibels.

Who am I and when will I find the shhhhh place?



**At lease I'm no threatening to pull the trigger.