My Turn To Shine

"He said to them: “It is not for you to know the times or dates the Father has set by his own authority" Acts 1:7

Flat Bush Avenue does not resemble one stitch of home.

Lined with wig outlets, barbershops, $5 Plus Size Fashion stores, and greasy Dim Sum stalls with freshly caught fish laying on the sidewalk; We've arrived in deep south Brooklyn and I adore it.

My Teamster driver talks to me about coming from a long line of family members married to the union. We seem to hit every pothole and barely dodge the men selling bottled water in the graffiti covered median.

I close my eyes to catch a quick glimpse of daylight rest since the knockoff handbag brigade greeted me early on Canal Street.

I wait in the musty basement of a circa 1900 home full of Little League Trophies and antiquated exercise equipment relaxing my brow and my fist pumping arm I've been shaking at a slimmed down John Goodman while avoiding Camera B.

There's a little satisfaction in the fact casting booked me as an angry protestor and not another upscale woman at a party. I eat two pieces of chocolate to celebrate the small victory and get me through the next scene.

Ring. Ring.

Casting.

"Hello."

"Hi, we're doing re shoots on the movie where you were an upscale party guest, are you available?"

"Uh."

"You will receive three waivers and have Screen Actors Guild eligibility."

"Formal gown and heel is what I do best!"

Hell if the shoe fits, I'm dancing ecstatically in it....

Hallelujah, Hallelujah, Hallelujah. Giving God ALL the Glory!!!!

As my 784 day search comes to an end.

Ain't it amazing the difference a day makes?

Sink It...Swish

“I write one page of masterpiece to ninety-one pages of shit,” Hemingway confided to F. Scott Fitzgerald in 1934.

“I try to put the shit in the wastebasket.”

Just in case you were wondering where all of my ranting blog posts have gone.

Kurt Vonnegut told me I should find a subject I care about and my "winning" style can only come from the ideas in my head.

I'm regrouping as I find myself adopting the tireless dance of the irritably driven, also know as the New York way; Much to my dismay, resulting in not one creative thought in my brain.

The life of a struggling actress dwelling in a two thousand dollar closet, dealing with the apparent signs of mental aging while juggling a beautiful relationship she's not real skilled at, living in the city she's always dreamed of, second guessing her natural talents and cashing hand to mouth checks she receives exhibiting them, all the while spreading the testimony of Jesus to her chastising liberal peers is quite a life to live...

I just wish I could write it.

This post is a metaphor for the wastebasket.

Another two pointer.

What do you want to read about?**

**As if working 14 hours doesn't lend itself to my sleep deprivation,

Keith Richard's LIFE has me intrigued.

Joy-A Novel Concept

"Sing to him a new song; play skillfully, and shout for joy." Psalm 33:3

Surprised by joy -impatient as the wind

I turned to share the transport - Oh! with whom

But Thee, deep buried in the silent tomb,

That spot which no vicissitude can find?

Love, faithful love, recalled thee to my mind -

But how could I forget thee? Through what power,

Even for the least division of an hour,

Have I been so beguiled as to be blind

To my most grievous loss? - That thought's return

Was the worst pang that sorrow ever bore

Save one, one only, when I stood forlorn,

Knowing my heart's best treasure was no more;

That neither present time, nor years unborn,

Could to my sight that heavenly face restore.

William Wordsworth

"The reader who finds these three episodes of no interest need read this book no further, for in a sense the central story of my life is about nothing else.... I will only underline the quality common to the three experiences; it is that of an unsatisfied desire which is itself more desirable than any other satisfaction. I call it Joy, which is here a technical term and must be sharply distinguished both from Happiness and from Pleasure.

Joy in my sense has indeed one characteristic...

in common with them; the fact that anyone who has experienced it will want it again."

C.S. Lewis

Couldn't we all stand to write and read more about it?

"When you hear of wars and rumors of wars, do not be alarmed. Such things must happen, but the end is still to come. Nation will rise against nation, and kingdom against kingdom. There will be earthquakes in various places, and famines. These are the beginning of birth pains."

Mark 13: 7-9

And Lord knows the first contractions are more gentle than the last.

Stand guard.

And lift up the people of Japan.

The Long White Corridor To Rejection

Just Another Hump Day

"So I turned to the Lord God and pleaded with him in prayer and petition, in fasting, and in sackcloth and ashes." Daniel 9:3

Warning: You've read this before:

Restraint and Revelry

Re-Lent

Disclaimer: MY BLOG.

MY Reason for not practicing the custom, NOT Reason why you shouldn't...

Is Ash Wednesday Biblical?
The answer is no.
And the custom of Lent?
Nope.

Ash Wednesday is actually of pagan origin and was admitted into the church beliefs of the Catholic Church a few hundred years after Christ.

And well the 40 days of forsaking chocolate closely resembling the repentance or forfeiting sinful behavior, it's what we Christians should strive for everyday.

He's interested in our hearts!!!

Not the observance of a man made ritual.

Can't you tell I want people to know?

PULLED. Schiller Off The Tiller

"Everything that is secret will be brought out into the open. Everything that is hidden will be uncovered. What you have said in the dark will be heard in the daylight. What you have whispered to someone behind closed doors will be shouted from the rooftops." Luke 12:2-3

Now will Congress pull their perpetuating elitist and leftist funding till?